Somehow I just felt that you can't really help others if you're not able to help yourself first. Hence, you can't blame the society for being cruel as everyone have their own problem no matter you're rich or poor. Apparently people's happiness seems to be build on others hardship. For instance, you want people to serve you by providing good service but do you know the people who service you is really sincere or just for money? After office hour, I took the train back home. Upon arrival home, mother prepared a simple vegetable dish with salted fish as my dinner and I am grateful for it. Later on, I sit down in front of the computer and "self review" about myself again whether what I really want in life. Remember I mentioned I might buy a Myvi to become a Uber driver or Grabcar driver? To be frank, it is not easy as shared by one of my college friend as he work as Uber driver since last year. He told me that you need to commit at least 7 hour to work everyday in order to earn RM6,000 profit.
Not much people really share the hardship behind as you need to meet different type of passenger and might face the risk of having enemy with Taxi driver or even SPAD. Besides, I do tell my brother about it and he say that it is part of learning process if I really want to do as you never try, you never know. Moreover, he said that you need to accept it whether it is a good or bad decision in the future. Honestly, the reason of "pushing" myself hard is partly because I found that you couldn't really achieve much if you sit whole day in the office if you're not in the IT line. No doubt it is quite irony to hear that a Uber/Grabcar driver can earn more than RM10,000+ a month which pays better than your office job. In life, the job environment keep changing everyday and it is all depend on the individual to decide the life that they want. I couldn't let go my so call "social status" of being a degree holder and end up working as a driver that don't really add on much value on myself.
I wonder how do you feel as a parent if your children didn't manage to get a high paid job? However, statistic show that people who drop out from college mostly can earn better than those people who have education. (Not sure real or not) Anyways, the truth is no one really care who you are or what you're doing, and I keep telling myself that there is no reason to not be who you want to be since there is no one to please nor anyone to impress. One thing for sure is that I know I need money to fund my travel experience no matter it from my future SAP job or any work I do. In addition, I do know that those MNC are willing to pay more salary for the certification I have and the things I lack of is confidence. In life, it is all about the decision you make. If you plan to become a normal person, that just stick to it just like the X and Y game shared by Michael Lim tutor. The game is all about influencing others people to create win win solution for everyone.
Later on, I noticed that my ads contract has ended and all my "funds" is depleted too. Hence, I just accepted whatever review I have just like the oversea Arabian review for Dubai people. Besides, I didn't buy the AirAsia X new route from KL to Sapporo (Hokkaido) Japan trip although it is cheap. For now, I accepted the fact that my "honey moon" might come to ends as I shall accept the fact to work until "die". Anyways, I just have some chocolate to make myself happy as below.
It is quite surprise to get to know Japanese men face this kind of issue despite their country is full of adult video (AV) industry. Maybe it is true that some people will feel that there is no use to find a partner if I can "DIY" right?
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