So this is the answer I get after waited for 4 years, went to Sheffield UK just to want to know "something" and now already back to Malaysia. Over time, I still figuring out the reason behind about our parents told us to get a good job, be a mature guy and finally settle down. To be frank, I had never "pak toh" (in a relationship) for over 25 years just to be the "good guy" that girl want. Often time, people thought that I must have something wrong or being categorize as "gay" as I normally hang out with guys. Somehow I just feel thing kind of broken heart feelings seems to be like happened yesterday if you ever read my "Pure Love Feelings" blog post that I written 4 years ago while I was still in college. Seriously it is shocking when I read back the post as I had written a Chinese sentences "别总是拿自己的不幸来博取他人的同情，时间久了会让人反感的，会让别人感到你很龌龊，不如做出点什么让别人尤其是伤害你的人来崇拜你。"
The sentences means that "Don't always take your misfortune to get sympathy from others, because it will just make people feel disgusting about you over time, therefore it is better to do something useful and let those people who hurt you before admire you" later in life. Later on the night, I went to have my dinner at Daorae Korean BBQ restaurant with a guy friend just to listen other's people relationship story. Do you agree that guy's problem always start with girl first, followed by money? After that, I just drove my car back while listening to "The Moonlight at the 5th of October" (十月初五的月光) theme song as below.
Before I end my post, I would like to share "How to Get Over Heartbreak" article by Wikihow and dedicated this to all the broken hearts soul in the world.
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2) Find something to help take your mind off your heartbreak for a while, the feeling will pass with time.
3) Talk to your friends and family.
4) Focus on moving on. Focus for a while on your career and family. If you help someone else out, you'll feel good, and have a chance to take your mind off the pain.
5) Keep it in perspective! Think about the positive things in your life, and what you have left.
6) Rebuild your life. Get engrossed in new things, and try not to look back on the past.
7) Talk to a professional. You may need to see a psychologist or other such p
8) Accept it. You might never quite be happy about the event that caused your heartbreak, and you might always shed a tear thinking about it, but eventually you will find that you can live without it getting in the way.
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Indeed "Begging" for Love or Attention is a pathetic way of living.Stay positive although I'm having mixed feelings.
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